Everyone throws pity parties for themselves but lately it's been more often than not that I've had them. I just get so sad at the prospect of not having a family, which is what I want more than anything right now. I'm not nearly old enough to be having these kind of thoughts but I honestly get sad when I see children and mothers with their babies. I long for that life. It's quite pathetic actually.
And then I have this stupid idea in my head that I might not be able to have children, which I really wish I could let go because I don't want to bring that kind of negativity on myself. Today I couldn't even cry. Can you believe that? My tear ducts actually told me 'no'. It's all for the best anyway. :(
Oh....no! No pity parties. Girl, I have so many of my girlfriends that have beaten me to marriage and hell, I am most of the time lucky if I can keep a relationship let alone make it to marriage, but, I take it in stride. Just know that God has a plan for you and your life and it will happen in time. The right one will come along. And...many of those people around us that are getting married aren't doing it for the right reasons and will end up being divorced. So, enjoy this time for you...you have the rest of your life to be married with kids.
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