Having gotten out of an extremely long term relationship last year, and being completely devastated as I watched something I thought would be forever come to an end, I was done with love. I thought I would sink into the abyss of having indiscriminate sex and channel the 60's and and 70's to present day and that would be the end of it.
Well it turns out that I'm not cut out for that kind of thing and I wasn't able to do it, not even once. :( I'm such a lame. I just kinda lived, learned myself and actually enjoyed the person I had become.
Now I'm at the point where I'm ready for love again, but real love. A real dating relationship where I actually get to learn the person that I'm with and he learns me as well, and we build a friendship. It sounds so cheesy as I read this aloud but I haven't had that in so long and deep down that's all I've ever really wanted. I'm constantly praying to God that I'm able to find this love and am so thankful that he's gotten me through those weak moments (a la last night) that could have ended to badly.
It's crazy that the older I get the more those oldies that I love so much hit home to me. Here's hoping...
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