Void

Ok, so I started writing this blog in the first place because I was going through something that I couldn't comprehend and didn't know how to get myself over the hump. A really good friend of mine (thanks Jug) told me that I needed to started talking things out, so I figured this was the best place to do it since I am the QUEEN of internalization. It's almost 1AM on a Saturday night and I'm sitting at home (as I've seemed to do for so many weekends now) drinking wine and trying to figure out what the hell is wrong with my life. I mean seemingly I have a lot going for myself - great job, amazing network of friends and family, wonderful personality (if I do say so myself), and yes, I'm a cute girl (woman? idk) ...yet something is missing. Yeah, the obvious thing is that I don't have a "significant other" in my life. And while that is something that I'd love to have some time in the near future, the emptiness that I feel doesn't stem from that.

I feel like a broken record but I've got to figure out what the next stage in my life is. I'm patiently waiting and praying to God EVERYDAY to give me some kind of clarity or epiphany but either I'm not listening or He's not ready to tell me because I'm just not getting it. Has anyone ever felt like that? I'm not that overly deep, intellectual type so I know I'm not the first person to go through this. They say... and by they I mean Oprah...that life gets better with each passing decade so that being said, I can't wait for 30 because this 20 something-ish is for the birds.